The other day I was sitting in my office aka “Simply Stine Headquarters” and one of the gifts that I got for Christmas was another Ikea Alex Drawer. I was working on getting things moved around and more organized and I had a moment that I wanted to share with you guys. This moment was shocking to me because honestly, I haven’t remembered feeling anything like this before and it kind of stuck with me and here we are.
This post was written on a whim this morning and I’m not going to heavily edit what I’m typing, I’m just going to let the words come out naturally. I want to do more of these posts because I feel like they are the real “me” and what I’m really going through and feeling at the moment. #LetsGetHonest
I saw this picture and felt like I could relate, ha!
I’m going to try minimalism….Yes, really. As I was sitting in my office surround by massive amounts of makeup, skincare and random other things, I had this moment of freak out happen and I didn’t know what to do about it. I just knew that I couldn’t take being surrounded by this much “stuff” and it got me thinking. Why do I need all of this?!?!?
Do not get me wrong, I love a new Beauty launch but I think that I’ve found a pattern that is happening and I want to talk about it. Since I’m a Beauty Blogger, I try to stay on top of new releases. I also get sent PR packages, which I’m super thankful for and not complaining at all. The problem is, I feel like I have to “keep up” with all of the other Bloggers out there and if I don’t get this palette when it launches or other products, I feel like I’m not keeping up with the new releases and I’m almost letting you, my readers, down. I know, that’s probably insane, but I want to make sure that this website is a place that you genuinely like to come to for product information and I want to make sure I’m always letting you guys know about new releases, etc.
I don’t want to be the person who is surrounded by “things” and that’s pretty much what is happening right now. Seeing all of this “stuff” was just so overwhelming to me. It got me thinking “When is enough, enough?” I’m trying to be honest in this post, so I’m just going to speak from my heart, but I’ve got way to many “things” sitting around and I feel like these possessions aren’t what I want my life to be about. I started thinking about it and came up with these questions that I thought I would share.
- Exactly how many purses do I really need? I just got two new ones for Christmas and I was in Nordstrom yesterday and wanted to buy yet another one. WHY????? I did have to exchange one I got for Christmas, but after that one, I’m DONE for a while! Seriously!
- I have four drawers of eyeshadow palettes. If I’m honest, I probably use at most two of those palettes regularly.
- Is having to have every new release even an option with my budget? What is it even doing to my budget? Exactly how much money am I spending on “things” to just test them and not use them again?!?
- I have so many books I haven’t read yet that are sitting around, BUT I’m still drawn to keep buying more when I know that I have more at home. Why???
- I never feel like I have enough clothes, yet I’ve donated tons and I still have a full closet
- My office is seriously stockpiled with tons of notebooks, stickers, washi tapes and I even have not only one, but TWO planners. I found myself wanting to go shopping for more the other day…why???
You get the idea of what is happening and I think the thing I question the most is what does this say about me as a person? I’m not a wasteful person, but there comes a point when I have to wonder what the hell am I thinking? I feel like this whole working as a Blogger thing can become very confusing. While I do get a lot of things sent to me, I also purchase a lot on my own. Now, I’m not anywhere near as bad at spending on Beauty products as some other people I follow, but to me, it’s becoming an unhealthy “addiction.”
I want to change. Obviously I will never stop buying Beauty items because I love them and it’s a part of me and my job. However, I’m not going to freak out about not getting every single new product that is released and placing that guilt on myself if I don’t get them. Yes, I do that. I have to stop that because me being a good blogger doesn’t depend on how many new products I purchase. I hope you guys, my readers, would agree with that?!? Instead, I want to put more effort into only talking about the products that are really, really making a difference in my life and not ones that I just feel like I “need” to share with you because. I want to focus more on other areas of blogging and not just beauty.
I’m going to start this whole journey and I want to talk about it as I continue the process. When I told people about me wanting to do this, even my own family laughed at me and I get it. I’ve never ever been like this before. I just feel like I still have to work on improving myself and improving my life. This part of my life is calling to me to make some changes so that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to talk about that whole process on the blog more and share what I’m learning as I go on. Sound good?!?
Even if you aren’t a blogger, maybe you can relate to what I’m talking about. If you’re someone who has made these types of changes, I’d love to know what helped you along the way. I think my main goal is to not feel like my life has to be measured by the amount of “things” I possess. I don’t work to accumulate “things”, instead I want to work to accumulate more memories. I don’t want my happiness to depend on a new eyeshadow palette. Instead, I want my happiness to be more than that.
I’m making changes to my life and I can see things are happening inside of me. Honestly, I just want to live a more purposeful life and I want to do things that bring me happiness. However, I have to explore what happiness means to me and I’m figuring it out as I go along. I get nervous that you guys won’t want to read these types of posts, but I want to be honest and open about what I’m going though because I feel like, there are a lot of you who are going through the same thing. I hope so at least…..
BOOK CLUB READERS: I’m almost done with our selection, You Are A Badass: How To Stop Doubting Yourself and I am loving it!!!! Here’s one of the quotes that stuck out the most from the book so far (and there are tons that I highlighted and wrote down) “If you’re serious about changing your life, you’ll find a way. If you’re not, you’ll find an excuse.” Want to read with us? Click here for more information on the Simply Stine Book Club!